For anyone who has been following me for any length of time you will know that I am a nurse in the UK. A job I trained three years for, a job I absolutely adore. Recently however things started to change.
Once covid hit, work went crazy and quite honestly scary. I woke up every morning with that feeling in my stomach, you know the one that makes you feel like you have been punched in the gut? That feeling of utter dread.
My nights became filled with worry, anticipation and my anxiety hit an all-time low. My mornings became filled with dread. I didn’t want to get out of bed and face another day of uncertainty. I became bored of the same old routine and I new something needed to change before my mental health nose dived.
So what did I do? I found myself, I mean really discovered who I was and what I wanted out of life. I started reading about the law of attraction, positivity and all things joyful in order to break away from the self pity party I had been a guest at for some time.
I started practising gratitude, each day I would write three things i was grateful for as soon as I opened my eyes, and then I’d write three things I wanted to achieve by the end of the day. I started small with things like making sure I had an empty washing machine before I went to bed, or having some TLC with a facemask and a bubble bath.
Slowly over a few weeks my mind set began to shift, I began to appreciate life more and noticed the more positive I was when I woke up, the more positive my day would be. Sure, negative thoughts often make there way into my head, self doubt and worry are amongst the culprits but now I let them in and then wave goodbye straight away. There’s no room in my brain for any negativity anymore.
A good friend said something to me once that really resignated with me and this is something that really did change my mindset and allow me to focus on pouring energy into the things that matter.
“Will this person/situation/worry make it into your book of life?, when you are 80 and you reflect on your life, will these people/situations have a space in your book?, if the answer is no then let it go. If it won’t make it into your book its not worth the worry or stress”.